May 2009

Hello everyone. I have been trying to write in my blog since My Layne has passed away.
I feel like my happy days have stop. I keep thinking back to that day April 11.2009.
Maybe if I was home when he had his attack, maybe I would've help him some how. I feel so bad that I never told him I love him that day. I feel like this is just a dream and he will be standing there asking what is for dinner or help me make a list of our grocery shopping list, while I cut coupons. He really, really like to shop with coupons and he always want to keep the receipt from the last shopping , to compare the saving. My heart is not into coupons cutting or shopping. I have gone back to work and my work keeps me busy so I'm not thinking about Layne. We had our life planned out and places to go.
I feel like I'm a zombie at times.
I love my kids very much. They have been strong for me and help me to get my life back in order, I want to Thank my daughter Janalea for letting me stay with her and her family. Even thou you have a family of your own and your putting me up and taking me to the bus stop and taking me to the apt. to feed my birds. I love you for all the things you have done for me.
I want to thank my Son Paul for letting me stay with him and his family one the weekend.
Thank you Paul for cooking for me and letting me watch TV. thank you for bring me home and just being there for me.
this is all for today.