memorial day weekend

This month we were suppose to have a family reunion, but we had to cancel it.
I went to my son's place and spent the nite and him and his wife brought me home.
It was a nice visit. I came home because Paul had to work tomorrow. I have vacation until thursday and I will be going back to work.
I'm still not doing to well since Layne had pass away. I try to hide from my kids and grand-kids.
I know that time will tell. I will be a happy person again. I always wonder about my mother how she felt when My dad died. She was full of sorrow all these years. I used to see her cry at times when I took my kids to see her. I really wanted my kids to know her and their cousins.
I wish that my grand-kids would have know her. I know that she would love my grand-kids, Like I Love them. She would show them how to make fry-bread, just like she did Janalea.
I hope everyone in this world are safe and happy.
all my prayer goes out to the men's and women's that are in the service to keep us safe and being a free country,
I better go now because my daughter is going to be here in a few minutes.

May 2009

Hello everyone. I have been trying to write in my blog since My Layne has passed away.
I feel like my happy days have stop. I keep thinking back to that day April 11.2009.
Maybe if I was home when he had his attack, maybe I would've help him some how. I feel so bad that I never told him I love him that day. I feel like this is just a dream and he will be standing there asking what is for dinner or help me make a list of our grocery shopping list, while I cut coupons. He really, really like to shop with coupons and he always want to keep the receipt from the last shopping , to compare the saving. My heart is not into coupons cutting or shopping. I have gone back to work and my work keeps me busy so I'm not thinking about Layne. We had our life planned out and places to go.
I feel like I'm a zombie at times.
I love my kids very much. They have been strong for me and help me to get my life back in order, I want to Thank my daughter Janalea for letting me stay with her and her family. Even thou you have a family of your own and your putting me up and taking me to the bus stop and taking me to the apt. to feed my birds. I love you for all the things you have done for me.
I want to thank my Son Paul for letting me stay with him and his family one the weekend.
Thank you Paul for cooking for me and letting me watch TV. thank you for bring me home and just being there for me.
this is all for today.

hello

it sure has been awhile since I have written in my blog. First off, I alway forget my password and so forth. lol
I had a terrible week this week. I just lost my best friend, my love, my man. I had been with my significant other for quite a few years. maybe 17 years or so. I having a terrible time right now. My whole life just fell under and it will be quite a while before I feel better about myself.
The day before Easter my daughter and I went shopping for last minuter Easter stuff. I got dropped off and came inside and found my significant other passed away. we had a memorial service for him up at South Mountain over looking the valley and be had a BBQ. That was what he wanted. He will be missed very much and was loved. I know that hes in a better place now and happy. I know that we would want me to go on with my life, and fofill our dreams we had.
In fact the first one is coming up in may. I know he would have been loved by everyone. He was such a forgiven person and he had so much love in his heart.
I will try to keep up with my blog........ I know hes laughing at me about my password......
thank you for everyone that reads my blog.

FEBUARY 2009

Hello everyone,
Today is Sunday, and I suppose some of you are in church. Well, I haven't been in church for quite a spell. Maybe, I will one day go.
Fist of the month has been quite a week, still trying to a just to the new year all that.
Second week my daughter had surgery. She had hysterectomy and she recovering very well.
Her husband took the week off to care for her and the kids. I had extraction the day after her surgery. I'm doing well. But I still need lot of work to get my teeth looking good again.
Layne, is still looking for a job, has applied every where and still has not been hired. I hope thing will look good pretty soon. At least, I still have a job.
Still trying to plan this family reunion and so far I really haven't done much of it yet.
I still need help and lots of input on it. HHHHEEEELLLPPP me.
My daughter said that my grand kids are going to be home tomorrow. That must be nice while I'm working. That's okay girls. I still love you.
My Janalea came over and she once again help change the background on my blog, first day out after her surgery, she looks good.
It sure has been cold here in the valley and I'm ready for spring. I'm having spring fever already. lol
thanks for all you readers

January 2009

greeting to all my reader that visit my blog. I hope we all had a good beginning for 2009. Iam still working for Banner Good Samaritan. I enjoy the work I do and it give something to do in day times. But I'm so tired when I get home, which is okay. I have been trying to work on this project and I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything so far. My project is Goodman's family reunion and I don't know where to begin, I feel so lost. I had never, had to plan anything like this and I'm so afraid no one will show but me?????????? Please, help me. give some points any one. I give this is one of my bucket list for 2009
My daughter is finally moving into her apartment this coming weekend. I get to have the kids with me. I enjoy having my grand-kids around me. I just love them so much. I told my daughter that I already put my order in to have the kids this weekend. When I don't see them I feel lonely and sad. I wish I could had done more for my daughter, when they moved out of there house. I'm just making it myself. But, I'm HAPPY for her and family. She going to have surgery next month and I just hope it goes well.
Thank again for all my readers

Happy New Year

I just want to wish everyone a Happy New Year. I just wanted to count all my wonderful blessing in the year of 2008 and I hope I have a good year in 2009.
Lots have happen in 2008. I have a new grand-son Elijah Working. My all my grand-kids are a year older.
My daughter had surgery, I believe my grand-daughter Isabella had tubes put in her ears, My grand-son Nathaniel was in hospital for Scorpion bites on his belly, had to be hospitalize for a few days. Chayanne, had her ears piercer, again for the second times. So she can be able to wear earring. In and out of clinics with colds and so forth.
Nothing major had to me this year but get older. Oh, yeah, I did. I had some dental work done and new glasses.I went home after 20 years or so. I was nice and lots has change. It wonderful to see my sisters and brother. My son, Paul and wife Ronda Christmas present to me. Thank You again kids for everything you all do for me. Just a phone to say I love yo means a lot to me. Or loan me $20 or $5. when I need a little extra until pay day. I enjoy all your helping hands when in need. Love you all.
My daughter and her family are now living with Daniel Parents. Until they get on there feet again.I'm still working at Banner Good Samaritan Family Medicine. I still take the bus to work and back. I don't have a vehicle, so I rely on public transportation. We now have a light rail in our city, I have ridden it a few times. I think I prefer the bus, which I get home earlier
I want to thank God for all my wonderful blessing and giving me my 2 kids, and Grand-kids.I'm still working at Banner Good Samaritan Family Medicine. I still take the bus to work and back. I don't have a vehicle, so I rely on public transportation. We now have a light rail in our city, I have ridden it a few times. I think I prefer the bus, which I get home earlier
We all had lots of happiness, along with the sadness in our lives.
Thank you god, that I'm able to see, hear, touch, feel, eat hurt, walk, Able to wake up each morning and breath air in my lung. I'm thankful for all my blessing in my life.
Wishing everyone a Happy New Year.